God Saw My Fear and Raised Me Some Serious Fellowship

But if we keep living in the light as he himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 1 John 1:7

I’m about to admit another sin to you. In the past, I’ve found myself jealous of the people in the Bible with whom God spoke directly. “Those lucky ducks,” I’ll think, “how could God get any clearer than with out loud real words that you can hear?” 

My logic is flawed. In Luke 16, a rich man who dies and doesn’t make it to heaven asks Abraham to send a direct warning to his brothers so they will make it to heaven. Abraham replies If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.“ We can’t be sure that even if we heard real out loud words from God, we would follow them.

I am blown away. Three days ago, I documented my extreme fear for impending foot surgery (here). Despite desiring to place complete trust in God, I was struggling. And guess what? GOD REPLIED TO ME! 

I arrived at the hospital and was checked in and feeling awful, scared, crying, anxious. Here is a picture of me trying to document the experience (the only one because, come on, those hospital robes are not made to stay on right):


In 1 John 1:7, we are assured that by living our life for Christ, we will have fellowship with one another. My surgery gave me more understanding of this scripture. One of the last things I saw before heading off into LA LA Land (via surgery drugs) was this message from a stranger:


In the hours and days after surgery, my blog experienced an influx of visitors (a CRAZY level). Pastor James Miller, someone who’d had their wisdom teeth out 2 days prior, a man who’d had open heart surgery, and (of course) Emmyblake519 whom I heard from the morning of all responded with encouragement. Prayers poured in from all over: my pastor, extended family, brothers and sisters in Christ whom I’ve never met.

It’s impossible to convey the dramatic change from the way I felt (alone, fearful, anxious) before the surgery and the fellowship God revealed to me that brought peace, warmth, and love. God put the right and perfect people and messages in front of me in the exact way that would tell me that HE IS WITH ME.

It might not have been the OUT LOUD words of God but I sure heard them loud and clear.

Thank you to everyone who prayed, who reached out, who read about my struggles. You played an important role in an experience that I am so thankful for.

PS. Sometimes maybe God sends us something silly to cheer us up. My first day back at school, my professor decided to show us his animal impersonations, which I think sped up the healing process. Enjoy the video below.


2 thoughts on “God Saw My Fear and Raised Me Some Serious Fellowship

  1. Andrea,

    I am so glad to hear God met you where you were before surgery through His peace and others prayers. I smiled when I saw this post, I was like “that’s me! I was the stranger!” Haha. I’m so glad to hear you are doing well!

    Blessings and prayer on a speedy and healthy recovery.


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