I’m not a fan of when people say “I can’t even..” but I have finally found a situation for which I truly CAN’T EVEN!
I can’t even with this Paris attack. I can’t even with terrorism and violence anymore. I can’t even with killing. I can’t even with the names, faces, and lives of the victims now coming to light. I can’t even with the 23 year old California college student who was studying abroad who is now dead. I can’t even with people comparing tragedies and gauging which we should be more sympathetic towards.
You can’t follow this without feeling devastated, helpless, overwhelmed, and confused. This isn’t the world God wanted us to live in and I have no other words to say than “THIS SUCKS!” and I can’t even.
I have never felt more like we are fighting a losing battle against evil. We are pushing uphill and being pushed with twice as much force down that same hill. Goodness is supposed to drive out evil and maybe it does but it seems like the evil side has got more resources to go after and wage war on the unsuspecting goodness side. So even if goodness can drive out evil, this is not man-to-man defense anymore. We seem outnumbered.
And maybe we aren’t outnumbered. But maybe goodness, by its very nature, is worse at mobilizing to take on evilness. Evilness, unconcerned with placing value on life, integrity, dignity, or service, has the distinct advantage of being more efficient at mobilization as it plows over decency and morality and put together its band of evil-doers with minimal coordinating costs.
If that’s the case, we are destined to lose to evilness. Unless, of course, the good side adopts some of the strategies that seem to make the dark side so successful in waging their war on the light. But then, who will stamp out our adopted evilness ensuring that we discard of tactics employed only to beat evil at its own game?
I just can’t even. I can sit in my room and reflect on verse after verse of the Bible (see below) but I sometimes still can’t even.
But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many. 2 Corinthians 1:8-11